Life's stupid, just when you think that everything's getting a whole lot better, something has to happen to step on your self esteem and its just so darn hard to get up. Why is life so competitive, some gets the better of it, others get the worst. A better perspective, mmm. Where do i get that from? I don't see any of it coming. I just need to look forward to something, something i want to commit into, something that makes me happy, something that makes me, me. Ohdamnit, is training going to get better from here? Well i hope so. For B'div 11, i will.
Did i mentioned i failed amaths with an 8. Wow, hell yeah. I'm demoralized by that 8. Could have done better, could have done this, could have done that? A little bit too late uh. Somehow, i should just stop getting competitive, i have my own abilities, my own capability, my own character. Why should i let you get me down? Prolly because i thought that i could be was part of your life? Not anymore i guess, its better to count on oneself. You won't get hurt as much. <:
Its just when its times like these, you look at those around you. You would actually know who really cares about you, and loves you for who you are, who cares for you, would take your frowns and turn them upside down. Its nice to know these people, at least i know i'm blessed with friends that actually care. Thank you Lord ♥
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