you could have picked yourself up,

Life's stupid, just when you think that everything's getting a whole lot better, something has to happen to step on your self esteem and its just so darn hard to get up. Why is life so competitive, some gets the better of it, others get the worst. A better perspective, mmm. Where do i get that from? I don't see any of it coming. I just need to look forward to something, something i want to commit into, something that makes me happy, something that makes me, me. Ohdamnit, is training going to get better from here? Well i hope so. For B'div 11, i will.

Did i mentioned i failed amaths with an 8. Wow, hell yeah. I'm demoralized by that 8. Could have done better, could have done this, could have done that? A little bit too late uh. Somehow, i should just stop getting competitive, i have my own abilities, my own capability, my own character. Why should i let you get me down? Prolly because i thought that i could be was part of your life? Not anymore i guess, its better to count on oneself. You won't get hurt as much. <:

Its just when its times like these, you look at those around you. You would actually know who really cares about you, and loves you for who you are, who cares for you, would take your frowns and turn them upside down. Its nice to know these people, at least i know i'm blessed with friends that actually care. Thank you Lord ♥

But i do all the time

& one week of holiday just flew by! ):

HAPPY 16TH BENJAMIN SOON!

Cake smashing last night was awesome, wasn't it <:

Celebrated Benjamin's 16th! :D Damn damn fun! Hahah. Met Athena, Alistair and Ben plus my sister outside my house. Went down to vivo, Superdog for breakfast/lunch. Its damn gooood. Wahaha. Down to Sentosa and Lugeee! Damn fun, although i've been on it super alot of times already. Hahah. Walked to Palawan beach and caught fish at some place, damn funny! Hahah. Walked back to Siloso and played at the beach! The weather was awesome, wasn't too hot! But we still got a tan! :D Bused all the way to KLP for a movie and bowling. Met Beitriss and Basil there. Watched up in the air, which was damn boring. Hahah, Ben and i did some stupid thing and his heart was beating non stop for 1 whole minute! Hahaha, damn epic! (Inside jokeee) Dinnered, no money to bowl so we played arcade. <:

Going home part was damn stupid. LOL. Everyone's card had like only 1plus inside cuz we used our Ez-link to pay for the entrance to Sentosa. Wanted to take the shuttle bus but the next bus was 30mins. So we decided to take 16 to Bedok and 24 home. While walking out to the bus stop, 16 came. So apparently, i ran for the bus and all the others followed. The bus driver being really nice, stopped for us when the bus stop was around 10m away? We all got on the bus and thought we were damn lucky. After 1min, Ben realized we were heading the wrong direction. Omg, damn stupid. Hahah. So apparently we paid 55cents for half a stupid bus stop. & you hardly run into such nice bus drivers! Tskkk. Damn lol. <: The bus ride home was damn stupid too <: Great dayyyy!

One week and i'm still stuck with my shitload of homework >:

The only exception

SUP'YO! ;D

Today was pretty awesome! Thanks Lydia and Jocelyn for the dayyy! Well, at least i know i've got you people that understand how i feel, and make me feel like someone cares ♥ Lunch was awesome ttm! <:

Well, i surely still miss you, in everything that you are, in everything we were.

No matter what, you still live up right there in my heart.

Things were rough, we chose to take that step.

If i couls bring back time, i would badly want to do that.

But apparently, so many things down; can't find those ups.

There's so many things i want back, i want to say to you,

but i can't bring myself to. Why ):

I don't have the guts, i'm sorry.

Bitchslap!

JULIA.ANG. <:

You are as small as this font you bitch.

I'm doing this cause i've been online practically the whole morning and i really have nothing else to do. & since bitchbfftiny Julia did one for me, this shall go out to her. (I was forced to do this) Teehee, obviously not. No one can force me to do anything, i did it cause i love her! Yayyyy! :D

10 reasons why JULIA ANG is my bbf! (BestBitchFriend) <:

1. She always understands me high or low, deep or wide.

2. She loves to bitch with me and we have loads and hips of fun.

3. We put the world behind us when we're together and forget that its even spinning.

4. We do heaps of crazy and fun stuff you can never think of.

5. When i'm lost (without a gps), she'll come get me. But just not at night, cause she won't be able to see me.

6. I'm TALLER than her and i feel damn good about it.

7. We're going to pia together, through thick and thin for netball and studies.

8. i cannot think of any other reasons cause she's just too awesome for me to even think.

9. I know! She promised me to go get tattoo and helix piercing cause its damn kewl. HAHAHA. (Inside joke)

10. She's really the bestbitchtinynobrainsfreak tweedle-dum friend anyone can ever have.

In conclusion, (just like how i concluded my speech and it became model answer for my class which i still feel super awesome about) JULIA ANG, I FRIGGING LUV YOU. <:

-this is what happens when you're stuck at home with a shitload of homework and nothing else-

& wash away, what i've done

Say helloooooo :D

hiiii.

Today was awesome! I woke up at like 12, finally after so long, i finally had a pretty sleep <: Yay! Camp online, till i saw Athena's facebook status saying she wanted to watch Alice in Wonderland. Talked to her on msn, and called all the others to go catch the 3pm one at Ehub! :D

Met at 2.3o and ran for the 3min bus 5! We missed it but luckily Amanda's friend's father saw us and drove us to ehub! Athena was damn stupid. She dropped $0.50 into the car and she told me it was cheap cab fare! Hahah! How dumb! Bought tickets and went in. The show was rather alright but Athena loved it. Walked to Pasir ris and had frozen yoghurt! Acarde-ed, and Alistair and me finally won Benjamin in Basketball! :D

Bused homeee, and dinner-ed. Whats with the holidays? Phfttt, i'm kinda packed :x I hope my homework load'll be able to clear on Tuesday! *fingers crossed* Julia, you better make Tuesday a good and successful one! :D I want to keep at least a %70 for mid-years! Well, we'll see about that!

I shall go make foood, i'm hungry! :X

Byeeeee!

You're still with me here in my dreams.

Heylooooo :D

.Just came home from Temasek's Carnival with Ryan, Benjamin, Jeremy, Jiaji, Beitriss and Brenice! Fun or what. Hahah, at least it wasn't a wasted Saturday morning. The haunted house was super epic. ._. Hahah. It was damn funny! Contents shall remain unsaid :x Church later, i hope it'll be really good ):

Weiqiang's birthday celebration yesterday. It wasn't that bad uh, it fact it was quite a blast! Lotsa crap. Hahah. Happy Belated birthday anyway! & i hope you enjoyed it.

Lotsa homework,

tell me what does holiday actually mean?

Piak.

This week was really bad. Hmm, mm, many things happened, got really upset. And never in my life i'd been so daring to leave the house :x Guess i just brokedown that night, with too many things bottled up inside of me. ): Life's just like that, i guess? So bothering :/ Phftt.

Love you, only.

Break a name

The weekends are good :D

I woke up at 9, just to accompany my mum to the market. And well, she accompanied me to get my class enterprise stuff too! Yay! And she was pretty dumb. Breakfast and Bedok interchange when i left without you junsheng (:D) and went down to Simei as i couldn't find the stuff at Bedok. So apparently we had shaved ice which was damn shiok and i bought mochi home!

We took bus 5 home.

I got up the bus and went to the last row to sit as there were only seats available there. I told my mum not to wear heels in the morning already but she wanted to so as to look taller than me. LOL

She followed me and she almost fell on this man. Damn dumb. She was telling me this story that there was once she went up bus 5, and she scan her ATM card instead without knowing it, so her whole bus ride was free. HAHAHA. Damn dumb i swear. So while we were getting off the bus, my mum scanned her card on the screen of the scanner thing and she went like "Eh? How come cannot read my card?" I look at her and i couldn't control my laughter. So i took her card and showed her the right way to scan it. She went like "Oh." Mygoodness, EPIC.

Its quite shiok, just sitting in an air con room with a whole box of the ice-cream Mochi and a can of coke :D No wonder my cough's not getting any better! Hahah.

PARAMORE's tonight! Damn it, i should have gotten the tickets if i knew so many people were going! Stupid Kevin. You didn't tell me you had tickets! Hahah. Whatever! Justin Bieber's coming :D Stupid gay. Heh. I wanna catch The Last Song, looks super kewl! :D

If only, If only , If only.

Drop a heart

What a tiring week of school! ):

Having a cough sucks big time. Its been super long since i had such a bad cough. And apparently, its not getting any better ): Boo! I woke up last night at 1.50 cause i was coughing so badly that i couldn't fall back asleep! Took some medicine, tossed in bed still coughing for around 40mins. Turned on my ipod and i finally hit lalaland. What a night ):

Slept through the whole 2 periods of Mr Ben Tan's class on Thursday. I feel so bad :X and for another period of Mr Seow's. I just needed sleep cause i am so shag. I just want proper training to resume, at least i don't feel so restless. I've been slacking so much, in fact too much. Come home, i just watch tv, and hit my bed with my ipod. And listen to it till i fall asleep. Every night. And i can still sleep during lessons. At least sleep can overcome matters of the heart. It'll kill your brain from thinking too much.

I didn't do well for Chem! ): & i'm really upset. Though i'm pretty satisfied with my Chinese! :D Yay! I never got so high before. That proves that my chinese doesn't suck! 1 more week of school, then i'll make sure i get a good break! :D I'm looking forward! (Finally, to something)

Looking forward to church tomorrow! Please take away my bad cough god! ):

& please help me make the right decisions.